Old Enough

It's typical teen to get mad at your parents and not talk to them and think they are ruining your life. Well i know that my parents and I have had a share of fights and silence. I know that silence never does any good and doesn't really get me far. They either don't let you go somewhere,  hangout with someone, get a tattoo or a piercing your dying to get. Parents think that piercings are trashy and they never give a legit reason why you can't get it. Just a simple "No, because i said so" , they think we will just take that. I think that if we are able to pay for it and we are of age we should be able to get one. Piercings or Tattoos aren't meant to be attention getters or try to draw attention to yourself. They are a form of expressing yourself and your personality in an outward fashion. Many people choose to pierce a part of their body in order to either make a statement or add a unique mark to their appearance. What is so wrong with expressing who you are?

 "Body piercing has been used as an art form for thousands of years. Everyone from ancient cavemen to ancient cultures and civilizations has used body piercing to express a variety of thoughts. Some cultures, including the ancient Aztecs, use body piercing to commune with the gods, whereas other cultures, including those in several African tribes, use body piercings to express beauty, status, or wealth."                
  By Donna B. Somerkin


Just the other night my mom told me i couldn't get my lip pierced. One little stud that you could barely see. " Then whats the point of getting it if you can't even see it?" was her response. That is not the point i was trying to make. She said that she would compromise and let me pierce my "shoulder blade"... but not my lip. I actually thought about it. Ya know i think i might get an humungous implant piercing on my shoulder instead of a tiny lip piercing. I have my ears triple pierced and i have an industrial bar already. She told me that a belly button piercing would be cute to get. If i would get that pierced that would make me want to wear shirts that show it off, because according to grown ups thats all they are are attention getters and just down right atrocious. Either way i will never understand there reasoning but i when i have kids i wont keep them from wanting to express who they are.

Proud Sister(:

Last monday my sister left to go to boot camp for 5 months to be a State Trooper. I knew once she graduated high school and college that she would do something great. I am glad i get to see her every weekend, even though she will be really tired and all she will want to do is sleep. At least i get to see some of her. I am so proud of what she has done, even though she is going to be a State Trooper cop, i still worry about what she is going and if she is ok. I believe that every branch of law enforcement or military should be treated the same. Yeah cops aren't over seas fighting for our country like soldiers, but she is still keeping people safe by "getting the bad guys" and stopping bad people from making stupid mistakes like drinking and driving, texting and driving, pretty much anything else that you shouldn't do while driving. I love her and i am so excited for her to graduate boot camp this April and become a cop and start her career/

I Will Always Have The Memories

 1,117. This is the amount of miles from Iowa to Arizona. That is the distance between my best friend and I. April of 2005. That is the last time I saw him. I will always remember that year. Not because i was about to be an 8th grader. Not because school was almost out, but because that is the year my best friend moved away.
   I remember it was after one of our junior high track meets that he told me he was moving. It was the worst day ever. That was the worst feeling my little 12 year old heart had felt. I couldn't believe my best friend was leaving me. Even though I was only 12, it still hurt me inside that he was leaving and i would never see him again.The worst part about the whole thing is that i never had a chance to say goodbye or give him a hug. When i look back one thing i regret is not saying bye to him. I live in little Van Meter, Iowa and now he lives somewhere in Arizona. I haven't seen him in 5 years but we talk almost every single day. He always talked about coming back when he got his license he would road trip some summer up here to see us. Three years have past since he talked about coming up and we are seniors now and it never happened.
    Now that we are seniors we will be going our different ways soon, and since he lives so far away we will be even more out of touch. I am going to college up north close to Minnesota and he is going to Northern Arizona for college. It kills me to think that we will never see each other ever again. I miss him so much and i think about him every single day. He always tells me we will see each other some day when we are older, so i am being optimistic and thinking we will too.
   Most people reading this might think that i liked him or was "in love" with him. Since i talk to him everyday they think i have a crush on him. I admit that we dated. Junior high relationships weren't so serious back then. Haha. What you don't understand is that it is nothing like that now. We have both grown up and become mature and understand that we dated in 7th grade. He has a girlfriend and i have a boyfriend and we are both really happy. Well i'm not, but thats another story. Even though we have our own lives and are in two different states it still means so much that we keep in touch and we both know we will see each other again. Life is too short to be anything but happy, so we just have to live our lives with worrying and sadness and eventually things will fall in place.

Don't Cry Because It's Over, Smile Because It Happened.

I promised myself i wouldn't cry when it came down to our last volleyball game. It doesn't seem real that i wont ever get to play on our court ever again. Like after school i still feel like have to get ready for practice, but then i remember we had our last practice. As I put away my volleyball shoes and my knee pads in my closet, it hit me that it's all over all the games, practices, wins, losses and bonding, it's all over. This was the last time i will ever play on a team with these girls. I couldn't of asked for better girls to play with and end our season the way we did. Even though we didn't go as far as we planned, we still went farther then a lot of the teams that had beaten us before. Going to the third round of regional finals was the best feeling ever. We had the confidence, mind set, determination and heart to keep going forward. Even though at some point it had to end and unfortunately for us it was quicker than we realized.Out of my four years of volleyball my senior year was definitely my favorite and most memorable. When you love something and you know the end of it is coming, you want to keep holding on just a little longer, just so it can hurt a little more. I will always reminisce about my volleyball seasons with family and friends just so i can remember that was the best time i ever had.  When all is said and done, it's not the kills and digs that won or lost our games that I'll remember, but the family that was created along the way. Senior year is where you really decide where you are going and who you want to be. Anywhere i go the 6 senior girls will always have a piece of my heart. They mean more to me than they, themselves even realize. They are the ones that filled this season with the memories that i will always remember. This time next year we will all be doing different things, making new friends and joining new teams in college but when I look back and think of the girls, I will smile and say that even though they were my teammates for only a season, they will be my best friends for forever.

Senior Night

Four years came and went. Senior night is tonight, It is unreal that this moment is finally happening. I am definitely not ready to have this season to end, but at some point it has to. The moment the scoreboard says we beat the team 3-0, my heart will smile and tears of joy and sadness will come to my eyes knowing I couldn't of asked for a better team to end my last season of high school with. This has been the best season for a huge amount of reasons. All the team dinners, pool party at Aspen's. At that moment I think is when we really became more than teammates, we became a family because we realized our trust for one another and found such a strong bond between us. All the sleepovers, car rides, random trips us seniors had and will have, are the moments I live for. They are my best friends and I am so lucky to have them. I know everyone says college is where you meet and find your "true" friends. I think they are totally wrong, because these are my sisters, and the bond we have can't and won't ever fade. I woke up this morning and reality hit me. We are seniors. This is our last chance to prove to our coaches, underclassmen, the fans and friends that we are leaders and that we have the capability to play and beat anyone that comes our way. This is our last time playing on a team together. So we have to make the most of it and give 110% the whole time. It will be a bittersweet goodbye, but i'm not gonna cry.

Everything Happens For A Reason

If something is going to change your life let. It might be the best decision you could make. Live everyday as your last day. You never know what is going to happen that day. So avoid the people that bring you down. Surround yourself with only the people who make you smile and laugh and make you happy. Follow your heart. A lot of the times when people come into your life you know they are there to serve a purpose or help you out or even figure out who you are or who you may become. Everyone experiences pain, loneliness, and fear. At that time it may seem horrible and a really tough time to go through, but when you look back on it all you will understand that going through that gave you the strength, heart, and mind set to overcome anything else that comes your way.

            When we look back 20 years from now most people will remember the big things like being on a varsity sport, being part of the so called popular click, even the times they thought they were in love when they were 15. When I look back I think of all the little things that created the big things. I will always remember the nights I spent crying I was laughing so hard with my best friends, which are pretty much family, the team bonding and camps and all the inside jokes that will be impossible to forget.  Even though I have taken so many pictures that will never replace having been there at that time. I will still always smile when I think of all the little things.

            Life is too short to regret. Anything that you might want to regret, just think of as a lessoned learned, a new page in your life.  So smile as much as you can, laugh as much as you breath and love as long you live. 

You don't know what you have until its gone.

A lot of people take something’s in life for granted. Something’s people do just carelessly; some people will never have the chance to do. You never know what you have until its gone. My grandma died 2 summers ago.  No one expected it. It just kind of happened. I wish I had the chance to tell her I loved her one last time. This last summer to the month and date from when my grandma was taken from us my grandpa died. Everyone was shocked. It really didn’t hit me right away, because it was impossible for him to be fine one minute, then not the next. I never got the chance to say goodbye or that I love him either. Which I know that they are in a better place, it still hurts that there was so much I wanted to tell them. I wanted them to be at my graduation, I wanted them to see me beat my dig record, I wanted them to see me at my senior prom, I wanted them to see me get married. I don’t think that people realize how lucky they are to have families that love them and care about them. 

Senior Year

Its crazy to think that it is senior year already.  My past three years of high school have gone so fast. Even though in the moment I was dreading coming to school and I thought summer would never come.  Now that graduation is 7 months away, it seems a long time but I know it will fly by. I have made incredible memories throughout the three years and will most definitely be making even more this year.

Everyone always says, “ When I graduate I wont miss anything, I just want to get out of here.”  The smallest things are the things I will miss the most and never forget. I will miss Friday night football, team bonding with all sports especially volleyball. Taking hours and hours to get ready for prom and homecoming to only spend a few hours with my best friends.  All the little moments you shouldn’t take for granted because after you graduate you will go back to your hometown and remember all the great times you had, and wish you could have it all back.

 Another thing that I will miss and never forget are my friends. I have made some incredible friends. Granted I have lost some friends too, but that’s all part of the high school experience. My friends are the ones that made my year, and worth coming to school everyday. Sometimes i look back and wish i could of done things differently especially gone after friends i shouldn't have let go. 

One thing i wont regret when i graduate is not having fun my senior year. I will do things i don't normally do, hangout with people that i don't usually hangout with. My year is just starting but i'm hoping it will be the year i remember 20 years from now.